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He Will Lead the Blind

My fiance recently shared this verse with me: “And I will lead the blind in a way that they do not know, in paths that they have not known I will guide them.  I will turn the darkness before them into light, the rough places into level ground.  These are the things I do, and I do not forsake them.” Isaiah 42:16

If any verse could speak to our lives currently, this would be it.  Nate will shortly be coming home and we both face many unknowns.  First, we have to basically learn how to be around each other again.  It’s been almost a year (minus the 2 weeks I was in China) since we’ve even been in the same time zone, let alone near one another.  Also, he has to get used to being home again.  I can tell you from my short time in Beijing, this will probably be difficult.  China and West Virginia are VERY different!

We will both also be looking for jobs.  We have somewhat of an idea of what we’re looking for, but we just need to be able to find it.  We have no idea what kind of hours we will be working, what our income will be, or if we will have benefits.  And on top of that, we’re going to be journeying into marriage!  We definitely don’t have any experience in that area.  Of course we have talked to many of our married friends and we will be going to marriage counseling, but it’s still unknown territory.

With all that being said, this verse serves as a reminder that God is always with us.  When we have no idea what the heck we’re doing, He is there to guide us.  He may not show us the light when we want Him to, but He will not leave us to find our way alone.  I know things will fall into place.  It may not be the way we envision, but God will lead us right where He intends us to be.  Lucky for me, I will have an amazing partner to walk this weary path with.  I am so excited to see what God has in store for us and I will cling to this verse through all the bumps along our way.

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So for the past few weeks I’ve had this overwhelming desire to do something creative and “artsy.”  I have helped my friend Meghan with some of her jewelry shows (she’s really awesome, check her out here) and have been so inspired by all the art and creativity.   I have learned how to make some jewelry from her (and actually sold one of my necklaces at her show!) and am really feeling the urge to make some more.  I also have a great friend, Ashley, who continually inspires me with all of her awesome creativeness (check out her blog here). The problem is….I’m still in my internship.  I only have 2 weeks left, but like the end of any semester, I have a LOT of work to do.  And of course, all I want to do is anything but my school work.  Does this ever happen to you?  So in an effort to try to take the focus off of all the fun things I want to do and focus on school for a couple more weeks, I’m going to make a list of the things I want to accomplish after it’s over.  (This is of course in addition to studying, taking, and PASSING my RD exam in August, trying to find a job, and welcoming my fiance home!)

1.  Make some jewelry (I have a small obsession with origami things, so maybe I can incorporate it into some jewelry? hmmm…)

2.  Start making decorations for the wedding!  (I haven’t started a thing and it’s in November!)

3.  Try to blog more often

4.  Pick 2 crafts I’ve “pinned” and actually DO THEM!

I hope I’m actually able to accomplish all of these.  I’m tired of having all these creative urges and never producing anything from them.  I need to at least complete #2 or I’m going to have a pretty ugly and boring wedding!  Do any of you have any tips on keeping on task and following through with projects?

It’s a Process

I have to constantly remind myself that life is a process.  I find myself all too often focusing on the end result.  Most recently I’ve been thinking a lot about what’s going to happen within the next year.  I’m about to finish my internship and get a big girl dietitian job.  I’ve been trying to figure out exactly what I want to do and what I think I will be good at.  I’ve also been thinking a lot about Nate’s and my upcoming marriage.  Where are we going to live, what will we be doing, how long will we stay here before we move out of state, etc.  I want all the answers now.  I forget all the little things that happen along the way to that final destination that I am so desperately trying to figure out.

I remember when I was thinking about the kind of guy I wanted to marry.  I had everything planned out.  What we would be doing, where we would live, and so forth.  I can tell you now that if any of the things I had come up with had really happened, I would not be as happy as I am now.  Yes, I ended up meeting a guy that just so happened to be getting ready to leave for China in a few months.  That wasn’t in my plan.  But neither was going to China to visit him which was one of the best things I’ve done in my life this far.  We have also been able to grow so incredibly close just from talking on Skype which doesn’t even work that great all the time! We haven’t even made it to the place of being a married couple yet, and so many things have already happened to help mold and shape us to be the couple God wants us to be.  I don’t want to get so caught up in what I want us to be, that I miss all the little things that can make our relationship so much deeper.

My point is that when we get so focused on the end results we want, we miss the beauty of the process of getting there.  SO many things happen during that time.  Some thing are wonderful, others not so much, but we can learn during the process.  We can appreciate things so much more,

I am really going to have to make a conscious effort to focus on the process and not the product because that is not my natural tendency.  When it comes to dealing with my disordered eating, my career, my marriage, my family, and whatever else may come my way I hope I can learn to trust and appreciate the process.  God uses these steps to teach us great things.

“Slow down. Calm down. Don’t worry. Don’t hurry. Trust the process.” -Alexandra Stoddard